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January 2016

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January 16, 2016

I haven’t been to work since December 29th because I had to have my gallbladder taken out. While the surgery wasn’t exactly a walk in the park, it wasn’t too terrible after the first few days. I’ve taken full advantage of my time off by reading a million books, watching entire seasons of Sex and the City in one sitting, staying up until 2am, waking up at 11am and thinking about what I want to do this year and in life in general.

Above all, my goal this year is to just chill the eff out. I can get a bit angsty about life and I want to find a way to just roll with the punches and not stress out too much about the future. This year will be all about continuing the positive momentum I started last year with my therapy and my debt reduction. If you’ve ever tried to work on your personal issues or chip away at personal debt, you know that it’s definitely a marathon and not a sprint. For those of us who want everything done yesterday, it’s hard to just relax and trust the process, but that is exactly what I have to do. Two years from now, I hope the inside of my head and the inside of my bank account look vastly different than they do now. Long-term goals for the win.

I also want to find ways to extract maximum enjoyment out of the life I have RIGHT NOW, not pine away for the mythical future, perfect life that I envision. That means weekend camping trips, more walks with the dog, taking up my old hip-hop dance classes and prioritizing the time to connect with the people I love and care about. It also means finding ways not to get sucked up into the bull of work life. I want to do my job, do it well and still find ways to care for myself without losing myself in my work.

I also want to paint the living room this year.

Other than that, I just want to be me. This is the first year that I haven’t started the year out promising myself that this is finally MY YEAR to lose weight, save all the money, travel to all the places and get all of the promotions. You know how dogs turn around in circles several times before they finally lay down? I feel like the last thirty years of my life have been all about me chasing my tail. Now it’s finally time to just nestle in and find a bit of peace.

What about you? What are your goals for this year?