We up and moved. Hightailed it out of Modesto and followed our dreams. We live in Oakland now and we’re over-the-moon excited about the new life we’re building together. We can see the future and it looks so bright. We make big sacrifices for this new life every single day. I drive three hours round trip every day to get to work, Keith drives two hours, we work different schedules so we only see each other on the weekend, we pay an exorbitant amount of rent each month, we no longer have a yard so we walk rounds and rounds in the neighborhood so the pups can do their business.
Even still. Even still, we’re so much happier than we were in our old lives in Modesto.
I wish I could go back five years and shake myself so hard, reprimand myself for hiding in fear of trying something new. I wish I could go back and force myself to listen to my gut that was leading me here. I wouldn’t have lost so much time. I know the years I spent in Modesto taught me many things, but god I wish I could get that time back. Seven whole years of psyching myself up every day to be happy. I get a pit in my stomach when I go back to that place, so I’m not going to go there right now and upset myself again.
I try not to be preachy in this space, but please, please learn from my mistake and the years I squandered talking myself into something that I knew beyond a shadow of doubt wasn’t right for me. Life is so, so short. Your gut talks to you for a specific reason. Please listen. You’re the only person who knows what’s right for you and you’re the only one who can make it happen for yourself. When you read these words, your gut is probably talking to you and whispering a reminder of what your own heart wants. Follow it. Make it happen. It’s the most beautiful thing to feel your own soul in alignment. It’s priceless and worth every sacrifice.
Now that we’re here, my heart is reminding me of this space and the dreams I have to pursue my writing and a creative life. So, I’m listening and showing up.
Here I am. Let’s make it happen.
Karla is one of those people who would probably look gorgeous in a garbage bag. She’s flawlessly beautiful and she has a knack for putting together killer looks that seem completely effortless.
Her blog, Karla’s Closet, has been on my radar for years now. It definitely deserves a spot on your feedly.
I’m writing about her today because she recently released her own collection, The Line by K, that seems infinitely edgy and chic. She’s created the type of items you just know you’d reach for over and over again if you had them in your closet, but wouldn’t necessarily think you’d need in your regular rotation.
Congratulations on the new line, Karla. What item would you buy right now if you could? I’d go for the Mari Tee, but I am definitely intrigued by the Adrienne Body Suit in black. Am I a body suit kinda gal?
I’ve lived in California more than four years now, but I can clearly remember driving with the windows down one cool, refreshingly crisp summer morning right after I moved here, thinking “why in the world doesn’t everyone live here?” I still stand by the sentiment, but I’ve come to realize that everyone DOES live here. That’s why amazing places like Lake Tahoe, Yosemite and even the 580 Freeway in the Bay Area are almost always trafficky, congested messes. California is crowded, yo!
Nevertheless, I am still completely smitten with this state. I had to attend a video shoot in Santa Cruz a couple of weeks ago for work. I woke up in the morning to a dense fog out of the window of my hotel room and felt pretty worried that we weren’t going to be able to get what we were looking for because of the weather. I don’t know why I doubted, though. By 11am, the fog had burnt off, revealing the most epic, quintessentially California beach day we could’ve ever asked for.
I didn’t have my good camera on me, but I just had to capture the day with the trusty iPhone. I hope you enjoy my snaps.
I stayed at the Hotel Paradox (recommended, but I might stay at the Santa Cruz Dream Inn next time because they are dog-friendly and very convenient to the Board Walk) and ate at the Aquarius Restaurant at the Dream Inn twice, unfortunately. I honestly don’t recommend it because I had two meals there and was very disappointed both times, but the view from the table WAS amazing.
Last weekend, we loaded up the kids and the dog and headed up to the Sierras for a little adventure. We spent $80 to rent a little motorboat for the afternoon on Pinecrest Lake and you’d think that we’d rented a yacht for the way the kids were acting. We scouted out a swimming nook and took turns trying to withstand the FREEZING water. The boys even played in the boat while we were stationary. It was so adorable.
Writing this blog is going to force me to bring my camera with me more often and for that I am so grateful. I just don’t take the time to document my life and I really should. Looking at these pictures today made me so incredibly happy and thankful.